Run to the Arm's of Love

Hi, my name is Josh Ho, or in short J Ho. Past weekend was really an awesome experience for me. I've encountered God yet again, and yet again He never fails to amazed me.

I went to a christian conference called Spring Leadership Conference. I went with the heart of wanting to explore God more, but never expected to be drawn so close to Him. And of course, i went there with problems of my own. I have always been struggling with my identity. I tend to pick up good traits that i see in people and integrate it in myself, to become a "better" person. Sometimes I feel fake. I tried to be humble and I acted humbly. Despite of that, I feel somewhat empty inside. I guess the reason why I want to be humble is because I want attention. I want to feel loved and aknowledge, and attention satisfy that.

So, I wasn't being humbly for the right reason. I was humble for myself. I ended up lost and empty with that track. This may not sounds like a real problem to someone, but it was to me. It's really personal. I believe everyone person have diffirent sturggles and this is mine.

But God has always been faitful to me, though I have not always been obeying. I was really broken down this past weekend that I can have His love building me up. I was feeling unworthy of being what I was and for His sacrifice. How can a righteous king die just for a servant, moreover a sinner. There is none! There is only Jesus Christ. Such love that I feel from Him that gave me hope agian. His grace is sufficient. Even as wretched as my thoughts and actions can be, His grace is sufficient to envolope me with love.

I opened my heart to God, I surrendered my burden to Him...laid it at His feet. In exchange, He is moulding me, making me more to be like a servant. Yeah, a Servant! Like the saying goes, becareful for what you pray for. Because God is going to give it to you through trials and tests. I always finds it funny to pray for patience, haha. What a test it will be for those who pray for patience. Sorry for sidetracking. I am not saying His work is done in me over just a weekend. I still tends to pick up traits, but whenever I do, I will think of the nature of a servant and who am I doing it for. I am doing it for God. I will do it out of love, His love. It's harder than it actually sounds. It actually requires heart, wow! Go figure! His love is for everyone. Everyone.

So since this was a leadership conference, I thought you will be taught how to lead. Indeed i learnt how to lead, by being a servant. And my prayer for humility, answered in the form of a servant. During the last supper, Jesus the Son of God, took off his authoritative robe and put on a servant towel around his waist. He then began to wash his disciples feet. What master will exchange the power of authority for servitude. Such humility and love was demonstrated by Jesus's action. He not only wash his disciples feet, but also his enemies. So as an act of faith, although you don't have to. I washed someone's feet, vice versa. It was a really strange and akward and no less a humble experience.

Then comes the Quiet Time, where I spent my time with God. I never did any long prayer in my everyday life, nor manuscripting the bible. But the experience I had was eventful. I was opened. Again i felt loved by Him. I also made some commitment to have quiet time everyday and to live for Him everyday. I want to bring the same love He has given me to people around me. So please pray for me as I will need prayers and continue to bring God's glory. Thank you.

Sorry if I jumps from one part to other parts as I feel the construct didn't go that well. But if you don't get what I've said so far, this is what I really want to say. I want to let you know how great is His love for all of us, for me. I found a new depth of love during the weekend I spent searching for Him. I am gald I did. His love is everlasting and is ever true. He can never betray you like the world will. You have to experience Him to truly understand His love. It was funny when Eekai asked how was my "Chap Goh Meh" a.k.a. chinese valentine's day. God has a good sense of humor. Indeed I found love during Chap God Meh. The greatest love I would ever find. I thank you God for giving me this love and not giving up on me.

I feel to say a prayer.
Father God, I thank you that you have given me such a wondeful experience. And I pray that you will use me and this blog to reach out to people. Let them feel your true love and never be thirsty again. And I pray Lord that you will continue to work in me as I am desperate for your love. Help me to maintain this fire and passion everyday as the world will try to take it away. I also thank you for Eekai Lord, thank you for his initiative for starting this blog, let this blog be manifestation of your glory. I also thank you Lord for bringing Eekai into my life. He is a good friend and I pray you will also continue to work in him and give him courage and wisdom in things he is undertaking. In Jesus name, Amen.

Couple of songs I would like to share:



Let's all run to the arms of Love.