Semester's over!

sigh of relief....semester is over and finals no longer my life. good feeling, and christmas season....Mmmmmm...so much goody mushy feelings...
fall semester was an amazing semester, being a leader, leading a bible study, pursuing Jesus in a way i've never before, a whole notha' level! discovering my weakness and humility. discovering my faith, and being missional. ups and downs. making new friends and missing my friends...can't wait for next semester packed with epicness and adventure with Jesus!! yeah!! go and get it!! but first, Merry Christmas readers!! stay warm and be jolly for you are given a great gift by you know who, NOOOO, not voldermort! by Abba Father, yeah, your intimate father in heaven. :D

Thanksgiving

I feel to give thanks to the Lord.
Thank you Lord for first loving me. Thank you Lord for choosing me to love. Thank you Lord for giving me love. Thank you Lord for suprising me. Thank you Lord for surrounding me with amazing people. Thank you Lord for showing me humility. Thank you Lord for reminding me of your relentless love. Thank you Lord for your sacrifice. Thank you Lord for your strength and comfort. Thank you Lord for your LOVE!!!!! It makes me want to shout! Hallelujah! Jesus you are awesome!

Run to the Arm's of Love

Hi, my name is Josh Ho, or in short J Ho. Past weekend was really an awesome experience for me. I've encountered God yet again, and yet again He never fails to amazed me.

I went to a christian conference called Spring Leadership Conference. I went with the heart of wanting to explore God more, but never expected to be drawn so close to Him. And of course, i went there with problems of my own. I have always been struggling with my identity. I tend to pick up good traits that i see in people and integrate it in myself, to become a "better" person. Sometimes I feel fake. I tried to be humble and I acted humbly. Despite of that, I feel somewhat empty inside. I guess the reason why I want to be humble is because I want attention. I want to feel loved and aknowledge, and attention satisfy that.

So, I wasn't being humbly for the right reason. I was humble for myself. I ended up lost and empty with that track. This may not sounds like a real problem to someone, but it was to me. It's really personal. I believe everyone person have diffirent sturggles and this is mine.

But God has always been faitful to me, though I have not always been obeying. I was really broken down this past weekend that I can have His love building me up. I was feeling unworthy of being what I was and for His sacrifice. How can a righteous king die just for a servant, moreover a sinner. There is none! There is only Jesus Christ. Such love that I feel from Him that gave me hope agian. His grace is sufficient. Even as wretched as my thoughts and actions can be, His grace is sufficient to envolope me with love.

I opened my heart to God, I surrendered my burden to Him...laid it at His feet. In exchange, He is moulding me, making me more to be like a servant. Yeah, a Servant! Like the saying goes, becareful for what you pray for. Because God is going to give it to you through trials and tests. I always finds it funny to pray for patience, haha. What a test it will be for those who pray for patience. Sorry for sidetracking. I am not saying His work is done in me over just a weekend. I still tends to pick up traits, but whenever I do, I will think of the nature of a servant and who am I doing it for. I am doing it for God. I will do it out of love, His love. It's harder than it actually sounds. It actually requires heart, wow! Go figure! His love is for everyone. Everyone.

So since this was a leadership conference, I thought you will be taught how to lead. Indeed i learnt how to lead, by being a servant. And my prayer for humility, answered in the form of a servant. During the last supper, Jesus the Son of God, took off his authoritative robe and put on a servant towel around his waist. He then began to wash his disciples feet. What master will exchange the power of authority for servitude. Such humility and love was demonstrated by Jesus's action. He not only wash his disciples feet, but also his enemies. So as an act of faith, although you don't have to. I washed someone's feet, vice versa. It was a really strange and akward and no less a humble experience.

Then comes the Quiet Time, where I spent my time with God. I never did any long prayer in my everyday life, nor manuscripting the bible. But the experience I had was eventful. I was opened. Again i felt loved by Him. I also made some commitment to have quiet time everyday and to live for Him everyday. I want to bring the same love He has given me to people around me. So please pray for me as I will need prayers and continue to bring God's glory. Thank you.

Sorry if I jumps from one part to other parts as I feel the construct didn't go that well. But if you don't get what I've said so far, this is what I really want to say. I want to let you know how great is His love for all of us, for me. I found a new depth of love during the weekend I spent searching for Him. I am gald I did. His love is everlasting and is ever true. He can never betray you like the world will. You have to experience Him to truly understand His love. It was funny when Eekai asked how was my "Chap Goh Meh" a.k.a. chinese valentine's day. God has a good sense of humor. Indeed I found love during Chap God Meh. The greatest love I would ever find. I thank you God for giving me this love and not giving up on me.

I feel to say a prayer.
Father God, I thank you that you have given me such a wondeful experience. And I pray that you will use me and this blog to reach out to people. Let them feel your true love and never be thirsty again. And I pray Lord that you will continue to work in me as I am desperate for your love. Help me to maintain this fire and passion everyday as the world will try to take it away. I also thank you for Eekai Lord, thank you for his initiative for starting this blog, let this blog be manifestation of your glory. I also thank you Lord for bringing Eekai into my life. He is a good friend and I pray you will also continue to work in him and give him courage and wisdom in things he is undertaking. In Jesus name, Amen.

Couple of songs I would like to share:



Let's all run to the arms of Love.

Song of The Month

I pray that this songs will bring listeners closer to God and just love Him. Like really, just love Him.

So Come Back

When we look into the mirror how does it reflects on our life..
No doubt during the day we laugh , we do crazy stuff when we are in the company of our friends..
But in the end of the day , when we are alone, when we are driving, when we are waking down the hall way, when we are bathing, or even before we go to sleep..
Do we smile just becoz we are truly joyful?
Do we wake up in the morning "sighing" our way tru the day or do we waking with enthusiasm, expecting God to bless us as we try our best to be a blessing to others?

So come back..
To the light
To the love of the Lord..



You run, you hide
As tears fall from your eyes
They fall like snow
From a wounded soul
You hold inside
The hurt of great divide
The hole is starting to get old

So come back to the light
To the love, you will find
It’s been here all along
So come back to the start
And you’ll find in your heart
That you always belonged
To me

Just take the rope
I won’t let it go
Give in
We can start again
I’m life, I’m hope
And I’m ready to explode
With how bad I want you back home

So come back to the light
To the love, you will find
It’s been here all along
So come back to the start
And you’ll find in your heart
That you always belonged
To me

You’re my daughter, you’re my son
You’re the one I long to love
And you’ve heard I chose to die
Do you know you’re the reason why?

Change

Randomly i decided to clear up my mail box, and out of the randomness i come across this one drafted email. It was just a simple note but it hit me as i read it again and again. I dun remember when i wrote it probably back in October or so.. But i was really encouraged with the simplicity of giving up ourselves and releasing our wills so that God can heal us and use us for His glory.

Is hard hard to describe the change in me and it sounded almost impossible. But God always do the impossible. Few months ago I was bitter , I was angry , I was selfish , I was so filled with egos.
Back then i was running blindly chasing after everything n anything but God.

How could i feel so different now compared to then?
For months i been running around in circle..
Worrying bout things that are not in my control..
Doing things that hurt everyone around me and myself..

One day, when i was looking into the mirror, God shows me the reflection of who i was..
And lets not get into details of what i saw in myself.. And yes it was that bad..
And then on i know i have gotto change..
Lord told me to seek forgiveness from people i might have hurt and in the same time forgive those who hurt us.
So I've started by asking for forgiveness.. Even after doing so, sometimes the situations still won't change in our favor but by doing so my whole self feels renewed.
I took a step not knowing where it will lead me to..
And i experienced things so beyond my expectations.

“I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly..” -Jesus (John 10:10)