Randomly i decided to clear up my mail box, and out of the randomness i come across this one drafted email. It was just a simple note but it hit me as i read it again and again. I dun remember when i wrote it probably back in October or so.. But i was really encouraged with the simplicity of giving up ourselves and releasing our wills so that God can heal us and use us for His glory.
Is hard hard to describe the change in me and it sounded almost impossible. But God always do the impossible. Few months ago I was bitter , I was angry , I was selfish , I was so filled with egos.
Back then i was running blindly chasing after everything n anything but God.
How could i feel so different now compared to then?
For months i been running around in circle..
Worrying bout things that are not in my control..
Doing things that hurt everyone around me and myself..
One day, when i was looking into the mirror, God shows me the reflection of who i was..
And lets not get into details of what i saw in myself.. And yes it was that bad..
And then on i know i have gotto change..
Lord told me to seek forgiveness from people i might have hurt and in the same time forgive those who hurt us.
So I've started by asking for forgiveness.. Even after doing so, sometimes the situations still won't change in our favor but by doing so my whole self feels renewed.
I took a step not knowing where it will lead me to..
And i experienced things so beyond my expectations.
“I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly..” -Jesus (John 10:10)
